Charli's Journal

Well I haven't written here since my sister was here visiting. Her leaving this time really knocked me for a loop. I was so depressed for almost 2 weeks. I dunno why that happened. I mean usually when she leaves I am sad for the day. I cry all day. But after that I usually get back to my usual self. This time it was different. Er got really sad after she left this time too. Of course that could have just been his reacting to me. He is my shadow after all. At any rate we both are feeling much better. I have been soooooooooooo busy with my Sims2 site. For those who do not know I am a SIMS2 addict. I'm not sure if I am as addicted to playing the game as I am to making things for it. I have been making things and uploading them to this site and people download my stuff to use in thier game! Yay! So this week I got an email from the site administrator. He asked if I would be interested in being a moderator on the site. I was thrilled and I said yes. Then later in the day he imed me and asked what I thought about having a subdomain!! YAY! YAY! YAY! My own sims2 space and I don't have to pay for it! I realize I probably sound like a geek but I have been working for something like this for 2 years now. I have uploaded stuff at other sites.. but never got the appreciation or recognition that I have at this site. So I am happy happy! The site is called PC-Sims.com I have been really busy the past couple days learning all my new tasks. And all of this happiness I have Roo to thank for since he is the one who HOOKED me on the game.

My sister and I have for many years had a ritual we like to call Summerschool. Summerschool happens at whatever time of the year she gets to come out and visit, and over the last couple of years we have timed her visit to include a hockey game between her Columbus Bluejackets, and my Coyotes. That game is tomorrow night. Tonight I got to pop her Lacrosse cherry! YAY! I also have season tickets to the Arizona Sting which is the professional Lacrosse team here. It worked out that there was a home game tonight! YAY! YAY! YAY! She loved it as I knew she would. The Sting played an awesome game,and she loved our seats which were right on the glass, up close to all the action. We won 12 to 5. Tomorrow we will go to the Hockey game. We had a really good time last night too. We went to a local bar with Er and played Darts! I haven't played darts in a bar for so long, I forgot how much fun it could be. I used to shoot league and tournaments, and even went to the National Dart tournament that is held every year in Vegas. I was quite good if I do say so myself..lol We ran into a couple of friends from my old Dart days. They were talking to me about shooting league again. I guess I have had the itch to play again since Ivy was here for Christmas. So I am thinking about it. I wish Nette could just stay here forever.(she lives in Columbus Ohio) I miss her so much when she is gone. Take a look at some of the pictures we took tonight while at the arena.





Isn't she beautiful? My little sister.

Yes I know I should be sleeping. I have tried twice now but I am just too excited about Nette coming today! YAY! YAY! YAY! My sister is the best. Sometimes when we haven't seen each other in a long time I feel like I'm going nuts. All it usually takes is a summer school session with my sissy and every thing is wonderful! I wish Roo and M&Ms were going to be here, but I'm excited for them and thier trip to California. They are going to have such a great time. Nette and I will be going to a Lacrosse game on Friday, a hockey game on Saturday and either driving to Sedona or the Grand Canyon on Sunday. I am soooooooooooooooooooooo excited! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! Can ya tell huh? lol

Isn't she adorable? My little Beans! Roo took this cute pic and I had to upgrade my account just so I could share it with you all!

Today my Roo came over and we went shopping! Normally I am not the shopping kind, but whenever we go out together it's always such fun. We listen to music,sing,and crack jokes about anything. Sometimes we just act plain silly. Those are the Best of times! hehe Roo didn't really feel very good because of his Fibro. (and skimina bing dong!)
I wish I could fix it but he assures me that I can't. (sprinkle ding!) Anyway he's going to Cali with M&M's next week so we went and bought some stuffs he needed and some he wanted, and some stuff I didn't need (chocolate marshmallow eggs..hehe) but I definitely wanted! lol I got some really cool beads too! New beads to do my hair! Yay!
We were thinking we would sneak off to Zia (my favorite music store!) But by the time we finished at Nightmare Mart he was hurting too much and needed to rest. We went by the grocery store and got Er some Ice Cream (he's such a whiny brat when he doesn't feel good) lol. We came home got attacked by the dogs, and Roo laid down for a rest while I worked on a new set for my Sims2 site. Oh wait! I forgot the BEST part of the shopping trip! We went makeup shopping!! WooHoo! All these years that's something we never did! hehe I said "who needs a daughter?" Roo said "Who needs a daughter when you have a Gay son?". lol Personally I don't believe I've ever minded being the only princess in the house! As long as my minions are behaving anyway.
While we had dinner I wanted to watch a movie I picked up "The Prestige". OMG I LOVE Christian Bale. ( I know me and a million other women) Anyway, Er was being a brat about it, he wanted to watch the Hockey game. Normally I would oblige as I LOVE Hockey. But I had wanted to see that movie since it was in the theatre and we never got to see it. So I have been waiting for it to come out on DVD. Then it's been out a couple weeks and I could never catch a copy in at the movie store. So today I finally got one! YAY! I was excited to watch it. Er acted like such a butt after Roo left that I turned it off and told him I didn't want to watch it with him cause he was a BIG BUTT! I went over to my PC to work on my sims2 stuff again. That drives him nuts! lol So it only took him about two seconds to figure out he screwed up. The next scene happens every time Er screws up: He puts on his lil' boy voice, and hangs his head and starts talkin skimina bing a spring stuff, and asking if I'm ready to watch a movie! I just wanna slap him a good one! So he obliges and bends over..lol He so cute. But I have to punish him for being bad so I told him if he sat quietly while I posted in my journal then we could watch the movie after I was done. So far he hasn't said a word..lol I guess I'll go watch that movie now!

HBO really ticks me off. They have some really awesome series Sex in the city,Six Feet Under,Entourage,Sopranos,and ROME which is the addiction of the season. Now they tick me off because they get you hooked on these shows (and for those of you who wonder YES they DO FORCE ME TO WATCH!) Then the season ends and they leave you hung out to dry. Don't they realize the effects? And when they stop making a series after you're hooked... OMG it SUX soooo bad. LOL.. I just read over what I wrote.. hehe I sound like a crack addict. Okay, nuff of that. I've had a couple busy days..Oh wait! have to go see some pics my Roo sent to me.
He's so cute! I like it when he spikes his hair. Sooooo cute! Ya just wanna pinch his cheek. Now about my couple busy days.. My friend Bruce showed up on Thursday as planned. I talked to him on the phone but couldn't see him til Friday cause I had a hockey game to go to. (YAY! The Coyotes actually won!) So he came over Friday to visit. I didn't even realize how much I missed him until I saw him. He looked good. I was surprised since the last time I saw him he was all tweaked out. I felt bad for about a blink that I didn't believe him earlier in the week when he called and said he was doing alot better, and that I would be surprised when I saw him. I was. Funny thing was I spent the couple days before he got here worrying about how it would go and then decided that it would go fine because I was letting go. I love Bruce, he has heartstrings,he might as well be family. I'll never turn him away when he comes to visit, but I'm not going to try and fix him anymore. When he's ready to get clean I'll be here for him. Man too bad he didn't wanna get clean now...Cause Damn he looked hot! lol Hmmm.. :) Er was really sick on saturday . We think it may be an ulcer. He's making a doctor's appt on Monday to find out. He said I took good care of him.. hehe
I'll tell you though.. it sucked while he was sick because I had to take out the doggies every time they needed to go except for when I could sucker Sir into doing it..lol But did tell Er I have a new respect and I am very thankful to him for being the potty master for the doggies! hehe He felt alot better today and seems to be getting back to his naughty self. Well I guess that's about it for tonight. I'm not even going to read this over hope it makes some kinda sense.

You are The [childlike] Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

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I am torn today. I am really excited my friend Bruce is coming to town. I haven't seen him in over three years as he lives in Texas (Yuck!). This weekend is his parents 50th wedding anniversary, (Yay!) so he's coming into town for that. I am actually shocked that he didn't blow it off. Now comes the torn part... I love Bruce. As a friend. I have for many years. He used to live here in town but he moved 6 years ago to try and get his shit together. (am I allowed to say shit on here? lol) His life was a total mess here before he left as he had gotten pretty bad into using Meth. He was offered a job in Dallas by a good friend of his and took the opportunity to start fresh. At least that was the idea at first. The thing is when it comes to partying (drug use) if a person really wants to do them they will find a way. So he moved to Dallas and at first things were great. He was making good money and visiting Phoenix about twice a year, usually around Race time. We had always talked at least once a week at first. I attribute that now to the fact that he had no friends out there at first except for his good friend who didn't do drugs. As I was thrilled he was getting back on track. I enjoyed his visits here bunches! Then the phone calls slowed, when I did talk to him I could tell he was high. Needless to say it hurt me to think he was sinking back into that lifestyle. You see I don't tend to get so close to people that I can say I Love them. When a person does get to that level of friendship with me they have what I like to call heartstrings. When someone has heartstrings... I just can't cut the tie. I suppose that may be unhealthy for me at some level, but that's the way it is none the less. If they are in a place in thier life where they are hurting themselves and I feel I have done all I can to help them help themselves, I usually put some distance between them and myself. I may Love them but in some situations I just can't stand by and watch them destroy thier lives and pretend everything is wonderful. I have this HUGE issue with trying to be fake. I just don't pull it off well. So why try? I haven't heard from Bruce since just before the races in November. We had a big fight over the phone because he broke a promise that he made to me about coming out for the races. The reason he couldn't come out is because he lost his Job (again) this is about the 5th job he has had out there in 6 years. He doesn't keep a job all the time either. So he had a huge fairy tale to tell 
which I had little patience to listen to. (That in it's self is amazing since I love Fairytales! lol) I just don't care to hear the bull anymore. There's always someone to blame but himself. I really miss Bruce. The old Bruce. I am nervous to see him, I know how I am. I tend to speak my mind, straight up. Sometimes that gets me into trouble. I want to see him, but if he looks like shit which I know he will, because he is doing meth again, I know we will wind up arguing. I just wish he'd come back. The way he used to be.

I feel YUCKY!! And I miss my Roo.We finger painted the other day. It was a lot of fun. He did forget to take home his pictures tho., and the picture I painted for MnM's.Hmmm... maybe I might have to take them over there tommorrow. Or another day maybe as they are usually busy bees. Sir had to work today, and Er and Dito and Beans are still sleeping. I made a couple little noises hoping to wake someone up but no luck! hehehe. It rained here last night. I LOVE the rain. Most especially if there is thunder and lightning. The doggies all hate it though. Well...I'm hungry so I gotta go make some noise to wake up Er. hehehe ...

I used to keep a journal many years ago. I dunno why I stopped. This was a gift from my Roo for Valentine's day, so I will give it a go. Today is Sir's birthday. He had to work which sux. But I am making him a special dinner for when he comes home. Steaks on the grill,(his favorite) twice baked potatoes,sour cream cabbage, and his Mommy made him a homemade Peach pie from some peaches we picked at apple annie's orchard. He didn't ask for anything but I got him 4 new dress shirts cause I like it when he's all cleaned up and pretty! Er went with me shopping yay! Sometimes it's hard to get him to do things like that, but today it was easy.I was surprised because he didn't feel well all day yesterday. I didn't even have to put on my princess tiara! YAY! 

 

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